I spent a lovely three day weekend with my Momma, Nana Tantrum. Bacon played with his cousins, Cookie Boy and Noodle Girl, until they absolutely fell asleep on the floor. They did fireworks, ate until we thought they would throw up, and played some more. It was exactly the way I remember spending the 4Th of July as a kid.
I however, am not doing all that great with the divorce, and am worried about some test results that should be in tomorrow. I am trying to keep the faith, and praying that it will all work out the way it is supposed to, but it is so much harder than I ever imagined it would be. Sitting here all alone night after night, is a little more than I had bargained for.
I will be okay - I think, I mean I usually come out okay in the end - I just need some time to get used to the way things will be. I need some time to remember that someone has a bigger plan for me, and even though I can't see it, if I give in and let him lead me things will be okay.
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I know what you mean....change is rough at times and it just takes time to find your new groove. Hang in there, love. Thinking of you.
When I return from vacay we are so spending some girl time. Sounds like you could use an ear and maybe a laugh and just maybe a cocktail...
I'm here for you, doll!
XO!
I too have been through the lonely nights. I often would let my oldest stay up late so I would have someone to talk to. We'd watch movies and eat cheese and crackers while the baby slept. Eventually I started to like the quiet evenings; it was my chance to reflect on my goals. I never had the chance to really think at the end of the day until I was on my own with two kids. When I met my new husband, I was so steeped in my private evening time, I had a hard time getting used to not having it anymore. I still miss that solitude to this day. It gets easier, it does. Sometimes it just takes some getting used to.
Thankyou for posting - I've been wondering how you are. Sorry I've been out of the loop.
Hang in there. I think of you often & pray for you when I do. Love you!
I sympathize. I was married over twenty years. I've been single now for six. I read somewhere that for every year you were together, it takes a month to recover...at least.
Big sloppy Internet hugs coming your way hon!
That sucks. Time to take up kickboxing?
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